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Dec. 5th, 2009 | 07:53 pm

So much right now is crazy, yet at the same time a side of me wants belonging. to someone else experiencing this misery, to someone else who perchance would understand?
this accumulation of things pushes me further and further into some sort of created oblivion.
wyndi is in the hospital. i want to do everything i can to make her better. her suffering becomes mirrored and that is when i realize how much money doesn't matter.
i am busting my ass off to the point where i have little left for friends, family and work. i want this though, right? i think also it is at a point where so much is too far gone for me to even fathom walking away. that goes for all commitments, all responsibilities. heaven forbid, you'll end up alone? although that does seem nice.
fly away.
drive away.
be free.
but wait for tommorow.

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azaleo

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from: azaleo
date: Dec. 6th, 2009 07:54 pm (UTC)
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Don't worry about friends and family, family has no choice but to understand and friends (if they're good ones) will always be there when you need them regardless of how much time you have for them at this point. Things always seem to go in waves, nothing much going on one minute and then the world crashing down the next, just take big breaths and lean on those around you. It's so hard having them in the hospital, when Cricket was in for colic surgery I was going crazy... I'm really glad Wyndi is feeling better (your fb said she gets to come home tomorrow? -yeah!!!). She's very lucky to have such a great mom! Chin up, things will improve really soon.. you must almost be done with school too right? Winter break just around the corner.. you're almost there! Home in 2 weeks hope we can catch up then.. miss you like crazy!!!
HUGS!

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Comfort me with Cabernet

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from: icyvitality
date: Feb. 16th, 2010 04:17 am (UTC)
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Thanks Katie. This is nice to reread. and very honest.

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